I knew this was an area that I had to explore.
October, 2010 I had my 2nd son, Alexander. This inspired me to demonstrate what it takes to get an even better body after having a baby and I would have new photos to help spruce up my websites, so I set the date for a 40th Birthday Photo Shoot. I had a good 11 months to work and prep.
It was fun to share the process through social media, boost credibility and help debunk the myths about post-baby bounce back. By August I was pretty lean and hired a coach to get me even leaner to look ‘my best’ for the photo shoot. Hindsight is 20/20, right?
So October 15th is Alexander’s first birthday. I was so consumed with the precision of the nutritional guidelines to prep me for photos (that were scheduled next week) I skipped eating cake. I also had a hard time when around my family to NOT talk about all prep, the work and the ways my body was had changed… I had trouble just being present.
The day of the photo shoot was a blast. I felt like a supermodel, my photographer was fabulous and I could NOT wait to post the final proofs for all the Moms to see.
The reviews were mixed. While some Moms were supportive and happy for me for reaching a personal goal still many expressed a different perspective. They shared what I secretly knew all along… that our community wasn’t about getting ‘bikini ready’ or any other popular ‘get a flawless body’ tag lines you see promoting fitness products. We were about so much more.
About a week later I broke my foot (first ever broken bone) and was forced to slow down… in life and in my business. I wanted to spend more time with both my boys and I needed the space to determine what my next step as a coach would be.
Then, in the Fall of 2013, I hit one of the roughest patches of my life. My business was doing ok, but my motivation to help it grow and evolve was just not there. I wasn’t sure what I wanted to change…but I knew that I was ready to approach things a bit differently than I had in the past.
Then, my sister Tammy was killed by a drunk driver. Honestly, it’s all a blur. I know I went into a shell and was no longer present. Not for my boys. Not for my husband. Not for my business. Not for myself. I simply wasn’t in a good place.